i was grieving for the death of my classmate..
izah..
she's n her baby ( sarah:1&half years old) died in tragic accident.. i was there when they're doing postmortem on her.. i see her for the last time before take her body to kebumi at her hometown in kelantan..
sedih sangat.. really2 sedih..
it's so tragic when u see a baby n a mother died togather in an horror accident..
n they'r my own fren..
i cudn't imagine if those things happen to me.. my God..

it makes me wonder..
if i'm gone, do my others frens will cry n grief as the way i am grieving to late izah..
do they will come to my funeral..?
do they feel sorry like the way i feel sorry to her?
do they talk only the good things of me the way i praised her?
do they....?
*sigh....*

n after pay my last visit to late izah..
i bring old fren zai to my house at bangi.. we have a long talk bout that stupid fucking bitch n her clicks. from our conversations, i realised that most of my gal skoolmate speshly my own batch dun really likes me. when those thing happen lagilaa dierang kutuk aku gile babi.. i dun care ape dierang nak kutuk.. but it makes me wonder.. busuk sangat ke aku ni.. jahat sangat ke aku ni.. buruk sangat ke aku ni.. sampai sume org tak puas ati.. tak suke ngan aku.. tell me.. tell me sumthing.. the truth bout me.. i know that i'm kinda bad bitch, stubborn n arrogant.. but i know there's other bitch more bitch than me, more bitter than me, more arrogant n blah..blah..blah.. even my in laws kinda dun like me.. they talk bad things behind my back...
gosh..
do i'm such a bitter person?

my mom has return to kelantan already.. n i'm missing her badly.. i feel like i wanna go back to my hometown n stay living wif my mom instead living here.. coz i know only my mom n my own big bro n lil bro who gonna luv me for the who i am.. wether i'm such a bitter big head or not..
missed 'em badly..