my husband is a big socca's jersey supplier in KL..
one of the distributor is Rizal, a mid 30's married man wif three kids..
he's got a gerai-jual-jersey at Danau Kota (a place jez like the ol' UPTOWN but it is sumwer in Setapak)..
well, i'm not talking bout jersey actually, but..
bout cheating among married furking men..
arghhh...
*another pieces of shit that mess my mind since last nite!!!*

i dunno if i'm suppose to write this..
but i really need to write...

last nite..
after leaving his office my husband heading to Danau Kota to supply jerseys to that Rizal guy at Danau Kota..
he's already told me that he's gonna be home late..
n return s soon s he can..
n guess what, he reached home by 2:30am early farking morning..
at first i kinda dun mind he return that late..
then i asked him..

me: nape lambat balik?
he: lepak ngan Rizal
me: buatpe?
he: takde buatpe. Rizal bawak awek tadi. ntah awek mane..
he: pastuh abg ipar die plak dtg kedai die.. (sambil gelak2)
he: pastuh papa plak kene bawak lari awek tuh..
me: haaaa????!!!!!!

WTF?!!!!

since then, my mood turn into disasters!
till now..
we've argued bout that farking stupid act of him n that farking cheating husband, Rizal..
round 4am, we've made it up n slow talking..
but still..
i cant help myself thinking that my husband probably cheating too..
ok..
i'm trying to be positive k..
but..

k let see..
that guy Rizal tuh, member ngan laki aku..
bini die tgh pregnant, raye ni nak dapat anak ke-4..
tapi smlm die bawak awek..
celake tak laki tuh?
sial kan?
pastuh mase die bawak awek kat kedai die, tetibe abg ipar die dtg..
then die suruh laki aku plak bawak lari awek tuh kuar dari kedai..
n guess,laki aku buat pe ngan awek tuh..
probably mesti die bawak awek sial tuh jejalan kan?
aku plak bodoh nape tak tanye die ape die buat ngan awek tuh..
takpe mlm ni aku tanye..

ok let say laki aku takde buat pe pun..
(kalo die but jejalan awek tuh memang sial ar, aku kat umah bagai nak rak tunggu laki aku balik, bleh plak die bawak awek tuh jejalan..)
tho laki aku tak buatpe pun..
still lagi die bersubahat ngan farking Rizal tuh kan..
cover up for him..
Rizal tuh pun kenal aku gak..
aku pun terpikir..
if one day, laki aku pun having an affair with an awek sial,
probably die tak risau coz he has friend named Rizal who do the same thing..
and tak mustahil nanti si rizal tuh plak yg tolong cover line laki aku..
tak mustahil kan..
u know men...

spesis manusia mcm rizal nie laa yg buat aku benci kat laki..
aku tak kesah kalo laki aku jez bf aku..
lantak ko laa ko nak buat pe ngan pompuan lain..
coz i can do the same thing..
but now he is my husband..
a husband..
i can't tolerate wif a husband cheating to his wife..
i really can't...

arghhh...!!
kusut.. kusut..

dah laa smlm my husband bawak balik sekotak farrero roche..
tak penah2 laki aku beli coklat kat aku, tetibe bawak balik 30bijik farrero roche..
pelik..
coz smlm dah lewat sgt..
kitarang malas nak argue pepanjang..
aku yg maafkan die..
coz selagi aku marahkan die,selagi tuh aku takleh tido..
n i really need to get to sleep,
finally i said..

me: it's alrite.. i'm fine.. (then i hug him)
he: sorry.. papa sayang mama sgt..
me: but i really hate what happen tonite.. benci gile..
he: sorry.. (again..)

man..
sorry it's not enough..
God help me..