so many things happens. am still feeling myself as a coward person. yeah am coward. well, it is so hard to tell the truth. urghh..
am kinda lost my insanity when am start to do those stupid things. why in the world am doing that. but it is so pleasurable.. and.. geez, i don't know.
can i jez live my life like a normal person..?
what a normal life is like?
normal like, go to work everday, working your ass out, at the end of the day return home, cook dinner and watch tv..
end of the month getting paid wif bunch of bux, n go shopping, buy anything u want to..
sounds normal? kind of laa..

is that all i want in my life?
what a lame thought..

mmmmm...

he makes me melt..
yesterday.. he sed..
"why in the world you are not mine..?"
i was fucking shocked.. dem..!
what am i doing, making he feel that way towards me..
of coz laa aku rase cam best gile die nak kat aku..
tapi.. huhu~ if only i can be his.. i dun mind..
but i luv hunky n that lil dude more than anything..
sumtimes, aku rase cam aku mempergunekan die lak untuk lari dari masalah aku..
huuu~ am feeling guilty like hell..
at the same time i want him to stay that way forever..
keep trying to please me..
always there for me..
but of coz laa kan.. it's impossible..
huuumm..~
i feel guilty..
guilty to him..
guilty to hunky..
guilty...