sumtimes when i see other couple do lotsa stupid retarded things..
i wish i have a partner like that..
i wish hunky's willing do lots lots retarded things wif me..
so, all the pressure and tense weighing our shoulder will be gone, tho for a while..
but, being wif hunky, there's no fun anymore..
i wish he's different..
i wish he luv to spend more time wif me rather than his frens..
i wish he luv to try lotsa new and stupid things wif me..
i know..
skarang ni, we re having enuf problems to think of, instead buat kerje2 bodoh dan tak bergune..
tapi, being stupid once in awhile, menjadikan aku sangat gumbira dan lebih bersemangat untuk hidup..
lagi2 kalo dapat buat sume tuh wif ur own partner..
mesti laa lagi best..
but unfortunately..
he's ain't the same person i know before..
i wonder..
who's changed..?
is he changed?
or i'm the one who changed alot..
tak taulaa..

this weekn, finally i managed to get him into conversation..
becoz suddenly, we realize, we are really in trouble.. financially..
so we talked.. alot..
am glad, we are kinda back into normal..
but still..
frustration is still there........
coz i dun get fuck!
arghh..!
we got one whole weekn..
48 hours at home..
n he dun wanna fuck!
am really sexually fucking stress..!
kang aku fuck ngan org lain..
aku gak berdosa besar nanti..
kang ade gak aku gi tuntut kat mahkamah syariah nanti..
sape yang malu..?!
'the husband that cannot satisfy his wife sexually needs..'
lame gile..
aku macam dah mati kutu dah ngan laki aku..
rase cam sial gile dah..
arghh..
WTF!!!??

ok..humm..
am trying to be optimist now..
from now on..
i have to work hard..
no more complaining about this and that *hope so..*
well, have to screwing my brain, what should i do now and then..
God help me.. huu~

dem!
am horny..
wanna get fuck..
argghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!